Clumsy

In resolution for my marriage, I'm trying to change my routine: waking an hour later, in effort to stay up later. Yet I feel the richness of my time with God is affected. I don't hear from you or see your pictures lately, I verbalize with my ever-present God while driving. Then in my peripheral, He shows me a contrast. On my right, a hawk is awkwardly trying to take off in flight and in my upper left, a hawk is gliding through the sky effortlessly and gracefully. That's how it is with me. Now, in so many ways, I a clumpsily flapping my body around, trying to accomplish what He's designed me to do. But, I sensed He was telling me through this imagery, Sometime you will soar. I kept playing the image in my mind, contemplating and praising God for His presence and faithfulness. When given such imagery, I search for Scripture to affirm the lesson.

Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Isreal,
'My way is hidden from the LORD,
and my right is disregarded by my God'?
Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
His understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might He increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary,
and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:27-31

It was ridiculous for me to complain that God had moved away, that I was invisible to Him. Just as He created those hawks, He created me. He sustains me. He holds me together. He directs my paths.
In two other situations within the next two days, I was comforted and instructed with this verse. Know God. Trust. Wait. Soar. Today, I'm akward. Someday on earth, I may experience short soaring experiences, but in heaven, I will soar.
What situation do you feel akward and clumsy with right now? Will you choose to verbally commit it to a powerful, sovereign Lord and trust in His ability to empower you to soar?